So BUSY!

I know, what the heck? I am unemployed, etc, but the last few days have been so busy! We have a family do this afternoon, then there's a church thing tonight that I helped plan and have to make cookies for still (ACK!), and sometime I have to pack and fill out a giant job application and... So this is it for today!

I am tired

And suddenly quite busy. I have no idea how that happened. I need to do about 50 thousand things before I head up to Nevada (to my parents') and Idaho (friends and my cousin's wedding). I need to pack. Oh boy.

And if you happened to catch the comment on my last post, I AM SO SORRY!

Friday Fun

Today I met up with an old friend at Starbucks. After talking for nearly two hours, I smell like coffee. I like smelling like coffee, even though I don't drink it.

Today I got a letter from my B. He's doing well. :)

Tonight I'm having a sleepover with my little girl cousins. Their dad and big brother are going camping so it's just about the perfect time. Princess movies, hair-dos, and nail painting.

I have nothing to talk about

1. Picked up a hitchhiker?
no

2. Woke up in a strange bed?
I guess so? I get very disorientated when I first wake up so any bed that isn’t my usual one I can’t remember where I am for a moment.

3. Made out in a movie theater?
yeah :)

4. Made out with 2 different people in one night?
nope

5. Thought your cousin was hot?
I’m well aware that my cousins are handsome/beautiful, but I’ve never been attracted to them

6. Caught on fire?
yep…only for a moment…I’m kind of clumsy

7. Been considered a bully?
yes

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
uh, no

9. Gone over the speed limit?
nearly every day

10. Painted your room or house unusually?
not really

11. Been somebody's designated driver?
yes

12. Danced in front of your mirror?
of course, hairbrush in hand

13. Talked or cried your way out of a traffic ticket?
Well, I’ve cried every time I’ve gotten pulled over and never gotten a ticket (except for my accident), so yes. But that wasn’t my intention.

14. Been dumped?
yes

15. Stole money from a friend?
no

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
Yes, thanks to the ride board at my university. Also thanks to meeting friends of friends who I was with.

17. Been in a fist fight?
just with my sister ;)

18. Snuck out of your house?
on occasion

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
hasn’t everyone?

20. Been arrested?
not quite

21. Made out with a stranger?
nope

22. Left a restaurant without paying your bill?
no

23. Had a problems with your neighbors?
Just the upstairs ones when I live in #9. Oh, and the west neighbors growing up were irritating.

24. Called in sick to work so you could do something more fun?
No, but I’ve called in honestly to do something more fun (or more pressing)

25. Slept in a bed with a pet?
my cat

26. Seen someone die?
no

27. Lost your luggage when flying?
no

28. Kissed a picture?
yes…

29. Been caught sleeping on the job?
Yes. It was not good. Luckily I had a very understanding boss (and co-workers) at the time.

30. Stiffed a waitress out of her tip?
no

31. Seen cloud shapes that reminded you of something other than clouds?
yes

32. Been naked in the snow?
thank goodness NO

33. Almost drowned?
sort of

34. Cheated while playing a game?
I’ve cheated to lose

35. Been chased by cops?
no

36. Fallen down a flight of stairs?

Many times. Ice plus me does not a good combination make. Nor stairs plus me, ever.

37. Been shot with anything?
Hypodermics

38. Felt an earthquake?
Of course. I’ve lived within a few short miles of the San Andreas Fault most of my life.

39. Laid a coin on a railroad track to get it smashed flat?
Yeah…unfortunately on a railroad track that hadn’t had a train through in more than 10 years. I wasn’t the brightest 12 year old you’ve ever known.

40. Ran a red light or stop sign?
yes

41. Been bitten by an animal?
yes

42. Had your vehicle stolen?
no

43. Wondered if you lived in a previous life?
not really

44. Hated the way you look?
far too often

45. Witnessed a crime?
yeah

46. Been lost?
so often it gets ridiculous

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
Yes! Massachusetts, April 2006

48. Known someone who committed suicide?
yes

49. Been picked up in an ambulance?
no

50. Seen a baby being born?

no

51. Done something that could've gotten you arrested?
probably

52. Enjoyed reading surveys like this, then refused to do them yourself?
sometimes

53. Caught a foul ball at a professional baseball game?
You expect ME to catch something?

54. Kissed an animal on the lips?
on the nose

55. Sang in public?
tons

56. Had a dream that you married someone?

Yes

57. Pretended to not be home when someone was knocking on your door?
Yes, I was home alone and didn’t want to deal with people.

58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?
nope

59. Ever gone in public partially nude?
“Partially”? Doesn’t everyone?

60. Been an informant for the police?
I called once when a friend threatened suicide in high school and I didn’t know what else to do. Does that count?

61. Had your name in the newspaper?
a few times

62. Not taken a shower for a week?
yep

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yes

64. Played chicken?
That stupid game? no

65. Snuck into a movie or concert without paying?
nope

66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
Unfortunately, yes. It was uncomfortable. Luckily, my “brothers” were there.

67. Broken a bone?
finger

68. Been mistaken for somebody else?
yes

69. Acted in a play?
yes

70. Cheated on a test?
no

72. Had surgery?
when I was a baby

73. Played your music so loud that the cops paid you a visit?
No, but I’ve had neighbors and the apartment manager come over and ask us to turn it down.

74. Gone on a date with one person and left them behind?
No, but I’ve wished I could.

75. Left graffiti somewhere?
no

76. Walked off a job?
no

77. Almost choked to death while eating?
not to death

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 years?
Nope, but I’ve been singing since I was 3.

79. Cheated on your income taxes?
no

80. Keyed someone else's car?
no

81. Thrown strange objects?
Yes, I throw things when I’m really frustrated.

82. Felt like you were dying?
yes

83. Thought about running away?
yes

84. Ran away?
When I was 7. I made it all the way to the corner.

85. Talked your way out of jury duty?
I’ve never been called for jury duty.

86. Made parents cry?
not that I know of

87. Broken a door down?
no

88. Owned more than 5 Sharpies?
Yes. I bought a giant multi-colored package a few years ago. It was amazing and I still have most of them floating around.

89. Squelched on a bet?
nope

90. Had your home foreclosed on?
no

91. Owned a horse?
nope :(

92. Been in a band?
Not one that actually played. We just pretended. :)

93. Gone a whole day without eating?
yes, all the time

94. Broken a window?
no

95. Shot an automatic weapon?
No, and I probably never will.

96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?
no

98. Had your home broken into?
yes

99. Invited yourself to a party?
no

100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?
Not really. I’ve wondered if anyone would care. And I frequently discuss what kind of flowers I want. :)

Promises Promises

I got a fringe (or bangs to those of you without a pseudo-Australian (currently) family) yesterday. And I totally need to show you all because holy cow is it weird. I haven't had bangs like this since I was...8? Or 12? I really don't remember. It's been a long time though. Anyways, I promised everyone on facebook yesterday that I would post pictures, but I don't have any. HOWEVER, today was my Grandma and my cousin's birthday and so of course we had a party and I am pretty sure my uncle took my picture. So if I can snag that from him, I can show you, if not, well, it might have to wait because my camera is dead. (Literally. I'm pretty sure there's no resurrection this time. My poor baby.)

Happy Veteran's Day!

Telling you a secret

You may or may not know that I am addicted to blogs. Now you do. One I subscribe to is a lovely connoisseur of all things pretty who runs an Etsy shop selling her jewelry. This is Fleur Avenue. (That was awkward sentance construction, but my brain hurts trying to fix it.) Anyways, she's running a give-away right now for a necklace that I honestly NEED :) and if I post about it I get additional entries. Here it is. So now you all should go over there and subscribe, but DON'T enter the give-away because then I'll have a better chance. :) Or do enter, either way.

crap

I didn't get the job. I don't know what to do. I've been unemployed for 11 months and seriously doing all that I can to find one. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Sweet

Tonight all the guys at the event I was at were incredibly hyper. And then they had doughnuts. And then not only were they hyper, they were scandelous too.

The end.

Freaking Crabby

So...had a meltdown last night, cried myself to sleep. Then woke up on time, but took too long in the shower so I was late to my first meeting. Nice long break before church that usually I write letters during...my brain wouldn't string words together. Got home, found out that something my cousin and I did yesterday that we thought was funny and kind of nice really really offended an uncle. Went back to town, had the longest meeting known to man, in which I embarrassed myself and in the process offended a girl who doesn't like me much already (who knew I was so offensive?). I'm going to bed now.

I have a job interview tomorrow morning. Pray for me please!

I have something to say.

It might not make sense, and it's kind of petty, but I'm going to say it anyways.

I get really jealous when other people talk about their romantic relationships.

This is stupid, in some ways, because I am in a romantic relationship, after all. In other ways, it's not so stupid because yes I'm in a romantic relationship, but I haven't seen B in 8 months, I haven't gotten to talk to him in real time or hear his voice at all in 6 months, and I won't for another 18 months or so. I'm jealous of the people who get to see their husband or wife or boyfriend or fiancee or whatever. I'm even jealous of the people who are seperated from their loved one, but still get to talk to them.

It's petty. I know. But I miss him. I miss seeing him and hearing him and hugging him and kissing him and walking with him and laughing at and with him and listening to him play his instruments and especially talking with him. But mostly I just miss him. I miss B. Himself. He's my best friend. And I just want to be with him. And I can't. Not for 18 months.

We're going on a year of living in seperate states. The first six months of that time we were able to talk almost every day, and we were blessed to be able to spend a total of three weeks together. I thought it was hard then. Now, we're surviving on letters and memories, and the letters aren't enough. Not tonight.

I don't want to hear that it'll be worth it. I don't want to hear how this seperation will make us stronger and how absence makes the heart grow fonder. I know. I just miss him.

18 months. 18 months. Only 18 months.

I guess it's better than 24 months.

So...

The problem with trying to post every day is that sometimes I just have not much to say. Today is one of those days. So, umm, have a lovely day. And look at these beautiful pictures. One is a photograph I took of my fabulous second-youngest cousin, Ela, the other is a painting my fabulous and very talented sister, L, did from the photo in the style of Chuck Close. Actually, because Blogger is refusing to put the pictures where I want them (ARGH), the one above is the painting, the one below, the photo.

Isn't she adorable? And L awesome? Maybe this will become an "Ela and L are Awesome" blog. :)