Saturday, January 31, 2009

Swift Update

I left my phone charger at B's last week or I lost it or something. It's vanished. And my phone is so completely dead.

B's going on a mission. I'm waiting. He'll leave in a couple months, we'll get married when he gets home in 2011. It's going to be hard. Don't tell be it'll be worth it. I know it will, but right now, I kinda want to just feel a little bit sorry for myself. We were going to be married in two weeks, and now it's two years and some. I'll be okay in a day or two, I've had a week to process, and I'll be done processing in a little bit. I don't want to talk. Just thought I'd let you know.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I'm bored. Bored. Bored. Bored.

What color​ is your tooth​ brush​?​
clear and teal

Name someo​ne that made you smile​ last night​ ?
talking to my b

What were you doing​ 45 minut​es ago?
talking to my brother

What is your favor​ite candy​?​
chocolate kinds. or fruity kinds. or others.

Have you ever been to a strip​ club?
nope

Would​ you kiss the last perso​n you kisse​d again​?​
definitely. as much as possible.

What is the best ice cream​ flavo​r?​
bunny tracks

What was the last thing​ you had to drink​?​
water

What are you weari​ng right​ now?
jeans and socks and b's hoodie

What was the last thing​ you ate?
chef salad

Have you bough​t any new items​ this week?
food during my driving yesterday and some lotion

What did you do yeste​rday?
kissed b goodbye for a while, then drove and drove and drove and drove, and then stopped at wal-mart on my way through town for my mom (and to buy lotion) and then talked to my b

Who is the the last perso​n you talke​d to in perso​n?​
my brother

Do you like someo​ne?​
yes

If you could​ be with anyon​e right​ now who would​ you want to be with?
b. as usual. or my girls.

Are you someo​ne'​ s best frien​d?​
yes

What are you doing​ tomor​row?​
babysitting and picking my sister up from school and applying for more jobs, and oh yeah, it's my birthday

Where​ is your mom?
in her room, asleep

Look to your right​ , what do you see?
a huge pile of my crap that i have nowhere to put and my closet/dresser

What age do you want to be when you have kids?
the plan is i'll be about 26

Is there​ someo​ne you want,​ but can' t have?
not really

Do you have a dog?
my family has 3

Last guy you talke​d on the phone​ with?
other than the guy at the dmv, my b

Last girl you talke​d on the phone​ with?
my mom

Any plans​ today​ ?
hopefully talk to b and then go to bed

Do you dye your hair?
sometimes

What were you doing​ at 7: 45AM this morni​ng?​
sleeping

Bigge​st annoy​ance in your life right​ now?
this whole being unemployed thing kinda sucks

Who is the last perso​n to send you a text,​ what does it say?
redbox's monday free rental code

Do you have a tan?
i wish, although i'm also trying to keep skin cancer away

Are you jealo​us of anyon​e right​ now?
not really

How do you feel about​ tatto​os and pierc​ings?
pretty neutral

Missi​ng someo​ne?​
very very much

When was the last time you were on an airpl​ane?​
when i flew out to kansas city last october (over a year ago)

Look in your inbox, who are most of your texts from?
b and my cousins

Are you an alcoholic?
nope :)

Where will you be in an hour?
either talking to b or going to bed

What made your day?
i took a bubble bath and now i smell like honey

What are you excited for in the next month?
b's birthday, i might be going down to r/c, might get to see b (huge maybe)

Does anyone disgust you?
a couple

When was the last time you cried?
yesterday morning when i said goodbye to b and started driving home

What are you good at in school?
arguing :)

Do you trust anyone 100%?
b and my girls

Who will you be with Saturday night?
uh, probably my little sister

What woke you up this morning?
one of my mom's day care kids coming in to see if i was up yet...she's not supposed to come in my room, but she does

Is tomorrow going to be a good night?
hopefully, it's my birthday :)

How many myspace accounts do you have?
one

What was your first thought this morning?
go away kid!

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
married to b, and hopefully doing something productive

Who do you wish you were with right now?
i'm irritating, i know, but b

Would you rather talk on the phone or chat on AIM?
depends

Do you listen to music every day?
yep

What do you want to do right now?
i don't know

Are you listening to music right now?
no, gilmore girls on dvd

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
nope

What makes you mad?
ignorance, prejudice

What are the third and eighteenth texts in your phone?
your bill is available
:) see you soon :)

What do you usually do right when you wake up?
check the time

What emotion you are feeling right now?
complicated

Who did you hang out with Friday night?
b!

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
occasionally

How many piercings do you have?
one in each ear

Are you a morning person or a night person?
can be either

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you talk to 24/7?
b, and a couple of my cousins are always there when i need them, even at three in the morning

Name one thing that made you frown today:
there was a wreck on the bridge when i was coming home from town

Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
only if i'm freezing

How long does it take for you to take a shower?
at least 20 minutes, unless i'm really rushing

Do you like the smell of gasoline?
not really

Have you kissed anyone whose name begins with the letter D?
nope

Do your parents really know you?
kind of

What are you listening to right now?
gilmore girls on dvd

Do you like pancakes?
yeah, i like waffles better though

Do you trust all your friends?
if i didn't, they wouldn't be my friend

How have you felt today?
still kind of confused

Are you a forgiving person?
i try to be

Ever had a girl best friend?
several

Ever had a guy best friend?
i think so

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
my sister? that would be problematic

Last time you laughed?
this afternoon

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
somebody calling for my dad

Aaaaaaaaaannnnnnnndddddddddddd I'm back

Don't want to be, but am. I had an amazing time. :)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Exactly One Month from Right This Minute

I was going to be married...I'd be coming out of the temple with B, married to him, this time February 13th. And now, we're not going to for a long time and I'm sad. And I just have to rant a little bit.

You do NOT know how I'm feeling. You can't know, even if you've had a similar experience, because you aren't me. I can guarantee there are circumstances that I haven't told you, even if I've told you more than most people.

I do NOT want or need the extra time to plan my freaking wedding. We were having a simple, casual, easy wedding because that's what we want, NOT because that's all we had time for or could afford. The important thing is the MARRIAGE, not the stupid flowers and bridesmaids (which we still won't have). We are, however, using this time to make sure (AGAIN) that this is right and make sure (AGAIN) that we're on the same page about the rest of our lives. Which we are. And I DEFINITELY do not want a bridal shower, ESPECIALLY with only the old ladies at church. IF I have a bridal shower, I want it to be fun and with my girlfriends, and there will be NO stupid games or forced awkwardness.

There are some circumstances that I probably haven't told you and I probably won't unless I have to, and until then, I'm definitely not discussing them on this public blog.

This little rant probably wasn't directed at you. I'm just fed up with annoying people and the fact that I'm not thrilled about my and B's marriage being postponed doesn't help my mood.

Although, I DO get to go to Oregon to see B next week! Yay! :)

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Public Service Announcement

As you all know, B and I were supposed to get married February 13 of this year. After a lot of thought and consideration, we have decided to postpone our wedding. We're still very much planning on getting married, but we can't do so right now. I'm sorry if you had bought plane tickets or otherwise made arrangements to be there