More Excuses

Yeah, once again, I haven't written in a while. I'd give excuses, but I don't really have any. I'm not too busy. I just don't feel like I should be all angsty and crabby and weepy all over the public internet. Not about what I'm upset about. I wish I could be happy and fluffy and full of raptures about sunshine and bunnies, but I'm just not feeling it right now. I'm in a funk, and I know it, and it's going to take some serious work on my part to get out of it, and I just don't have any motivation to do so right now. Let me wallow in my selfish self-pity for a while.

Thought you'd like to know

B's mission papers are done. They're in. And now we're waiting to find out where and the exact when of him going. Hopefully this wait, and the wait until he goes is not too long.

I decided I should write something substantial...but don't have much to say

Umm...substance...I'm not too good at that lately. Let's see what I can come up with.

Oh! Goals! I've set some goals lately. Goals are substance, right?

1. I've been in a total shopping mood lately, but this whole unemployed thing means I have no money to shop at all. However, living with my parents has some perks, such as access to my mom's fabric stash...sewing time! I made B a pair of pajama pants for his birthday next week, but I want to do some actual sewing for me...I've got a dress pattern I want to try, and I really want to make a skirt out of the dinosaur fabric my mom has...just because. So goal #1: SEW!
2. I am horrendously out of shape and overweight. This isn't something I talk about a lot, but 'tis true. To be at a "recommended" weight for my height, age, and bone structure, I need to loose at least 50 pounds, which may be a little out of reach for me at this point. I do, however, want to get more healthy, which still means making some changes. I need to eat better. I need to exercise more, I need to do a lot of things I don't currently do. I want to bike, but I don't have one. I think my sister's might be in the garage though, so I'll have to check on that. I've got a yoga dvd I want to try too. I want to be more in shape and not so flabby by the time I get married, which gives me plenty of time. B thinks I'm gorgeous now, but I don't, and I want to be happy with my body too. So goal #2: eat better and exercise!
3. As you know, I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that B decided to serve a mission. I need to be better and more supportive...or at least not have a meltdown almost every night when we talk. I understand now why he's going (ironically, that understanding has come in part because of my meltdowns), but I'm still making it harder on him, and he's having a hard time too. Therefore, goal #3: stop freaking out because it's going to be ok and B will be back before I know it.

Yay! Substance! I think, right?