Talking Back

This is probably a little passive aggressive...

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 03:00:00 +0000

Should I be hurt or offended that one of my very best friends from high school has joined several anti-Mormon groups on Facebook? To tell the truth, I'm kind of both.

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 23:10:00 +0000

I found a clump of gray hair on my head last night. Six of them. I almost cried. What the heck? I'm only 23.

No Camera Woes

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 06:25:00 +0000

I have never wanted to take pictures more than I have the last week or so since my camera completely gave up the ghost. Nan's home, Christmas is coming, etc, etc...

Would it be bad to put a new camera on my credit card? I have enough for even a basic DSLR (which I would do almost anything to get).

I know, I'm unemployed. So yes, it is.

Besides, Christmas is coming...

It's a good thing my electronics credit card is currently unactivated.

Dear Australia,

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 22:50:00 +0000

Thank you for letting our Nan come home to us. We know you'll miss her (we sure have), but we need her too.

Love,
the cousins

PS: My "thanks for writing me!" prize from Nan--a boomerang! Awesome!

Today I Am Thankful

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 02:01:00 +0000

for

my parents
my sister A
my sister L
my sister C, and even her husband Lo
my brother
all my cousins
my grandparents (especially the ones that let me live with them)
my aunts and uncles
B
opportunity
change
friends
the chance to reunite with old friends
hot chocolate
my car
you!

Glee

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 07:49:00 +0000

Yes, I'm a Gleek. I've been watching past episodes on Hulu this week. I love it. It's fluff and silliness with just the right amount of seriousness. Or maybe it's serious with just the right amount of fluff. I don't know, but it's the best show I've seen in a really long time.

Yesterday, I didn't blog

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 07:48:00 +0000

Instead, I

saw this beautiful girl get married

(my cousin No-mi)

Spent a lot (but not enough) time with this beautiful girl

(my cousin Katy)

made a new friend

(Alyssa)

and had a classic movie wedding experiance in which we could not stop laughing.

(yeah, we promised her mom this wouldn't go on facebook...we said nothing about blogs)

Yeah, I missed blogging last night

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 16:58:00 +0000

Instead I did this:

drove and drove and drove through Nevada and Idaho with my two little sisters.

(somewhere in northern Nevada)

And sat in line for hours and hours and hours to go to a midnight showing of New Moon with my former roommates and a friend from home.

(top, Elizabeth and Melissa, my friends from home that I kind of grew up with and lived with Elizabeth. bottom, me and Mandi!)

It was awesome.

Huzzah!

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 06:44:00 +0000

I finished my dress! Except for a couple hook-and-eyes and hand-sewing the lining where the zipper is, but I did it! I'll finish up that handwork tomorrow and Friday in between driving turns (tomorrow) and hanging out while friends are in classes/living their lives (Friday) before No-me's wedding on Saturday! So excited to see my family! And my friends! Not so much for snowstorms and driving in them. Or for going to this wedding without B (how many more weddings will I have to go to without him...the count is currently 4, and will be 5 this weekend) But family! And friends!

And, yeah, I'm one of those nerds going to see New Moon at the midnight showing tomorrow. My baby sister is so much cooler than me, because she's not. :) Or that's what she thinks.

Today I...

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 06:17:00 +0000

Got the windshield on my car replaced for my early Christmas present.
Started on the dress I'm making for my cousin's wedding (the one on Saturday) and I need to have the dress done by tomorrow night, since I'm leaving Thursday. It looks like it might get done. I might have to do the hem on Friday while hanging out with my old roommates (I love that Nome's getting married in eastern Idaho!), but it's a blind hem, so I'll be doing it by hand either way.
Listened to the "Glee Cast" station on Pandora. I love it.

I survived the drive.

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 04:05:00 +0000

I swear, every time I make the Ridgecrest-Winnemucca drive in either direction, SOMEONE has moved all the towns farther apart.

So BUSY!

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 20:33:00 +0000

I know, what the heck? I am unemployed, etc, but the last few days have been so busy! We have a family do this afternoon, then there's a church thing tonight that I helped plan and have to make cookies for still (ACK!), and sometime I have to pack and fill out a giant job application and... So this is it for today!

I am tired

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 05:41:00 +0000

And suddenly quite busy. I have no idea how that happened. I need to do about 50 thousand things before I head up to Nevada (to my parents') and Idaho (friends and my cousin's wedding). I need to pack. Oh boy.

And if you happened to catch the comment on my last post, I AM SO SORRY!

Friday Fun

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 22:17:00 +0000

Today I met up with an old friend at Starbucks. After talking for nearly two hours, I smell like coffee. I like smelling like coffee, even though I don't drink it.

Today I got a letter from my B. He's doing well. :)

Tonight I'm having a sleepover with my little girl cousins. Their dad and big brother are going camping so it's just about the perfect time. Princess movies, hair-dos, and nail painting.

I have nothing to talk about

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 05:25:00 +0000

1. Picked up a hitchhiker?
no

2. Woke up in a strange bed?
I guess so? I get very disorientated when I first wake up so any bed that isn’t my usual one I can’t remember where I am for a moment.

3. Made out in a movie theater?
yeah :)

4. Made out with 2 different people in one night?
nope

5. Thought your cousin was hot?
I’m well aware that my cousins are handsome/beautiful, but I’ve never been attracted to them

6. Caught on fire?
yep…only for a moment…I’m kind of clumsy

7. Been considered a bully?
yes

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
uh, no

9. Gone over the speed limit?
nearly every day

10. Painted your room or house unusually?
not really

11. Been somebody's designated driver?
yes

12. Danced in front of your mirror?
of course, hairbrush in hand

13. Talked or cried your way out of a traffic ticket?
Well, I’ve cried every time I’ve gotten pulled over and never gotten a ticket (except for my accident), so yes. But that wasn’t my intention.

14. Been dumped?
yes

15. Stole money from a friend?
no

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
Yes, thanks to the ride board at my university. Also thanks to meeting friends of friends who I was with.

17. Been in a fist fight?
just with my sister ;)

18. Snuck out of your house?
on occasion

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
hasn’t everyone?

20. Been arrested?
not quite

21. Made out with a stranger?
nope

22. Left a restaurant without paying your bill?
no

23. Had a problems with your neighbors?
Just the upstairs ones when I live in #9. Oh, and the west neighbors growing up were irritating.

24. Called in sick to work so you could do something more fun?
No, but I’ve called in honestly to do something more fun (or more pressing)

25. Slept in a bed with a pet?
my cat

26. Seen someone die?
no

27. Lost your luggage when flying?
no

28. Kissed a picture?
yes…

29. Been caught sleeping on the job?
Yes. It was not good. Luckily I had a very understanding boss (and co-workers) at the time.

30. Stiffed a waitress out of her tip?
no

31. Seen cloud shapes that reminded you of something other than clouds?
yes

32. Been naked in the snow?
thank goodness NO

33. Almost drowned?
sort of

34. Cheated while playing a game?
I’ve cheated to lose

35. Been chased by cops?
no

36. Fallen down a flight of stairs?

Many times. Ice plus me does not a good combination make. Nor stairs plus me, ever.

37. Been shot with anything?
Hypodermics

38. Felt an earthquake?
Of course. I’ve lived within a few short miles of the San Andreas Fault most of my life.

39. Laid a coin on a railroad track to get it smashed flat?
Yeah…unfortunately on a railroad track that hadn’t had a train through in more than 10 years. I wasn’t the brightest 12 year old you’ve ever known.

40. Ran a red light or stop sign?
yes

41. Been bitten by an animal?
yes

42. Had your vehicle stolen?
no

43. Wondered if you lived in a previous life?
not really

44. Hated the way you look?
far too often

45. Witnessed a crime?
yeah

46. Been lost?
so often it gets ridiculous

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
Yes! Massachusetts, April 2006

48. Known someone who committed suicide?
yes

49. Been picked up in an ambulance?
no

50. Seen a baby being born?

no

51. Done something that could've gotten you arrested?
probably

52. Enjoyed reading surveys like this, then refused to do them yourself?
sometimes

53. Caught a foul ball at a professional baseball game?
You expect ME to catch something?

54. Kissed an animal on the lips?
on the nose

55. Sang in public?
tons

56. Had a dream that you married someone?

Yes

57. Pretended to not be home when someone was knocking on your door?
Yes, I was home alone and didn’t want to deal with people.

58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?
nope

59. Ever gone in public partially nude?
“Partially”? Doesn’t everyone?

60. Been an informant for the police?
I called once when a friend threatened suicide in high school and I didn’t know what else to do. Does that count?

61. Had your name in the newspaper?
a few times

62. Not taken a shower for a week?
yep

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yes

64. Played chicken?
That stupid game? no

65. Snuck into a movie or concert without paying?
nope

66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
Unfortunately, yes. It was uncomfortable. Luckily, my “brothers” were there.

67. Broken a bone?
finger

68. Been mistaken for somebody else?
yes

69. Acted in a play?
yes

70. Cheated on a test?
no

72. Had surgery?
when I was a baby

73. Played your music so loud that the cops paid you a visit?
No, but I’ve had neighbors and the apartment manager come over and ask us to turn it down.

74. Gone on a date with one person and left them behind?
No, but I’ve wished I could.

75. Left graffiti somewhere?
no

76. Walked off a job?
no

77. Almost choked to death while eating?
not to death

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 years?
Nope, but I’ve been singing since I was 3.

79. Cheated on your income taxes?
no

80. Keyed someone else's car?
no

81. Thrown strange objects?
Yes, I throw things when I’m really frustrated.

82. Felt like you were dying?
yes

83. Thought about running away?
yes

84. Ran away?
When I was 7. I made it all the way to the corner.

85. Talked your way out of jury duty?
I’ve never been called for jury duty.

86. Made parents cry?
not that I know of

87. Broken a door down?
no

88. Owned more than 5 Sharpies?
Yes. I bought a giant multi-colored package a few years ago. It was amazing and I still have most of them floating around.

89. Squelched on a bet?
nope

90. Had your home foreclosed on?
no

91. Owned a horse?
nope :(

92. Been in a band?
Not one that actually played. We just pretended. :)

93. Gone a whole day without eating?
yes, all the time

94. Broken a window?
no

95. Shot an automatic weapon?
No, and I probably never will.

96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?
no

98. Had your home broken into?
yes

99. Invited yourself to a party?
no

100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?
Not really. I’ve wondered if anyone would care. And I frequently discuss what kind of flowers I want. :)

Promises Promises

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 02:37:00 +0000

I got a fringe (or bangs to those of you without a pseudo-Australian (currently) family) yesterday. And I totally need to show you all because holy cow is it weird. I haven't had bangs like this since I was...8? Or 12? I really don't remember. It's been a long time though. Anyways, I promised everyone on facebook yesterday that I would post pictures, but I don't have any. HOWEVER, today was my Grandma and my cousin's birthday and so of course we had a party and I am pretty sure my uncle took my picture. So if I can snag that from him, I can show you, if not, well, it might have to wait because my camera is dead. (Literally. I'm pretty sure there's no resurrection this time. My poor baby.)

Happy Veteran's Day!

Telling you a secret

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 06:29:00 +0000

You may or may not know that I am addicted to blogs. Now you do. One I subscribe to is a lovely connoisseur of all things pretty who runs an Etsy shop selling her jewelry. This is Fleur Avenue. (That was awkward sentance construction, but my brain hurts trying to fix it.) Anyways, she's running a give-away right now for a necklace that I honestly NEED :) and if I post about it I get additional entries. Here it is. So now you all should go over there and subscribe, but DON'T enter the give-away because then I'll have a better chance. :) Or do enter, either way.

crap

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 19:16:00 +0000

I didn't get the job. I don't know what to do. I've been unemployed for 11 months and seriously doing all that I can to find one. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Sweet

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 05:25:00 +0000

Tonight all the guys at the event I was at were incredibly hyper. And then they had doughnuts. And then not only were they hyper, they were scandelous too.

The end.

Freaking Crabby

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 05:21:00 +0000

So...had a meltdown last night, cried myself to sleep. Then woke up on time, but took too long in the shower so I was late to my first meeting. Nice long break before church that usually I write letters during...my brain wouldn't string words together. Got home, found out that something my cousin and I did yesterday that we thought was funny and kind of nice really really offended an uncle. Went back to town, had the longest meeting known to man, in which I embarrassed myself and in the process offended a girl who doesn't like me much already (who knew I was so offensive?). I'm going to bed now.

I have a job interview tomorrow morning. Pray for me please!

I have something to say.

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 03:13:00 +0000

It might not make sense, and it's kind of petty, but I'm going to say it anyways.

I get really jealous when other people talk about their romantic relationships.

This is stupid, in some ways, because I am in a romantic relationship, after all. In other ways, it's not so stupid because yes I'm in a romantic relationship, but I haven't seen B in 8 months, I haven't gotten to talk to him in real time or hear his voice at all in 6 months, and I won't for another 18 months or so. I'm jealous of the people who get to see their husband or wife or boyfriend or fiancee or whatever. I'm even jealous of the people who are seperated from their loved one, but still get to talk to them.

It's petty. I know. But I miss him. I miss seeing him and hearing him and hugging him and kissing him and walking with him and laughing at and with him and listening to him play his instruments and especially talking with him. But mostly I just miss him. I miss B. Himself. He's my best friend. And I just want to be with him. And I can't. Not for 18 months.

We're going on a year of living in seperate states. The first six months of that time we were able to talk almost every day, and we were blessed to be able to spend a total of three weeks together. I thought it was hard then. Now, we're surviving on letters and memories, and the letters aren't enough. Not tonight.

I don't want to hear that it'll be worth it. I don't want to hear how this seperation will make us stronger and how absence makes the heart grow fonder. I know. I just miss him.

18 months. 18 months. Only 18 months.

I guess it's better than 24 months.

So...

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 05:45:00 +0000

The problem with trying to post every day is that sometimes I just have not much to say. Today is one of those days. So, umm, have a lovely day. And look at these beautiful pictures. One is a photograph I took of my fabulous second-youngest cousin, Ela, the other is a painting my fabulous and very talented sister, L, did from the photo in the style of Chuck Close. Actually, because Blogger is refusing to put the pictures where I want them (ARGH), the one above is the painting, the one below, the photo.

Isn't she adorable? And L awesome? Maybe this will become an "Ela and L are Awesome" blog. :)

I have a headache

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 02:50:00 +0000

This is not unusual for me. Nor is it unusual for my headache to be so bad that all I want to do is curl up and die. I'd go to a doctor about them, but I have no money. None. Literally. I can't afford to pay the bills I currently have, there's no way I can rake up more trying to fund the cause of these headaches.

Ugh.

Going to bed now.

Once upon a time

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 05:12:00 +0000

There was a family of ducks. A Rachael duck and her cousin ducks Christy duck and Emery duck. Christy duck and Rachael duck liked to shop, and Emery duck did not, so he told Christy duck and Rachael duck they could pick out all his clothes. So they did. One day Christy duck and Rachael duck were at the thrift store and found a tuxedo that was Emery duck's size. So they bought it gleefully. And it fit him perfectly. The end.

In other words...Today Christy and I went to the thrift store, where every Wednesday is $5 a bag for all clothes. Christy's brother Emery has given us total power over his wardrobe selection, and my brother Hammalam* is slowly giving me that power as well. The local thrift store is large and well-stocked and we frequently find awesome stuff at it, especially for the boys. So we're browsing the men's section and we spot a tuxedo hanging on the same rack as the incredible 1970s double-knit suits that thrift stores are so full of. We gasped, grabbed, and checked the tags. Emery's waist size, and the legs looked about right too. We gasped again and checked the condition. Perfect. We gasped a third time and shoved it in our bag, along with a handful of shirts for him and a dress for Christy. We took it home and waited impatiently for Emery to get home from school. As soon as he did, we made him try it on. It fits perfectly. Except the legs and sleeves had been hemmed slightly too short (but they'd work in a pinch). Luckily, I can fix that. In fact, we took out the old hems (a good four inches on both the sleeves and the legs) this evening and will get them hemmed properly as soon as we can wrangle him into holding still for us to check to correct length. I love being able to sew blind hems.

Seriously, final cost, $1 for the suit, plus hemming. This kid is 17. He owns his own tux now. And he looks amazing in it. I'm proud to say my cousins and brother are handsome boys, and Christy and I like making them look handsome-er.

*Hammalam is not actually his name, but the corruption used by the 3 year old my mom babysits. We think it's funny.

Tonight Tonight

noreply@blogger.com (Rachael) — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 06:00:00 +0000

Well...not too much to report. Except maybe there is.

There's a new girl at FHE. She's older and a girl and not an engineer, so I'm thrilled. Except...I dunno...her voice irritates me for one. And oh the things I find out about myself from the crazy guys. Like I have a superiority complex and etc. They are irritating.

Today Christy and I were crafty and made hair pretties and I will take pictures sometimes because they are cute.

And now we are having a sleepover and will probably end up watching Horton Hears A Who or something equally ridiculous.

The End.